The Gnostic God

Its been my longheld opinion that Jesus was indeed God's personal God. When we experience the Abyss we are guided by a personal deity whom we feel led to chose via our faith and destiny. If you look at the Gnostic texts and trace the messiah from the pre-existence of the Word through his life on earth to the Revelation then only one conclusion can be drawn. Jesus was reborn into the womb of his own creation as God. He was remanifest as himself, through himself and for himself in a sense of experience and gratification. If indeed we as humans cannot feel the divine force through our fingers then God cannot feel the soil beneath his feet. It is arrogant to believe that we as His creation are doing this for him, far from it. We are a mere by-product of something much bigger. With our eternal questioning and wondering it would appear we are His agitators lurking within His Abyss. As the soul of His communication God could work Himself into existence as the Christ. Again I find it hard to believe by shutting our eyes God will no longer exist. More so the whole crux relies on the pauses in our breathing, that's where He lies. By that logic God vanishes in our blinking and is in a constant state of existence and non-existence. Therfore the Word becomes manifest as the Godform which inevitably leads to its antithesis as represented by the archetype of the Anti-Christ. The Only Anti-Christ I can accept is Christ Himself. Not a seperate duality but a singular event. God realised as his own creation constant through all worlds and events. Jesus was God made man. The only man-god to supercede legend into mainstream consciousness. So if Jesus was God made man then God must be Jesus (man) made God.